Coveteous (Listening to: Half of My Heart - John Mayer)

Grr. I hate really cute, taken men.
Especially Christian, funny, clever, brilliant ones with great minds and good hearts. Why would I hate these sorts of men? Only becuase other women found ALL of them before I did. Forget stealing them away, I couldn't do that. My stealing them would compromise their goodness, and the purity of the relationship I want with one of them.
I have a guy, but he's just cute. He's not brilliant, good hearted, or wittily comedic in any way. And he cuts me down when I try to be those things. Try? I am those things, I just supress it while I'm with him, because he doesn't like me when I act like myself.
AAaaagh, I just want one of the funny, clever, brilliant, really cute Christian men with great minds and good hearts. One of the ones who spells "tomorrow" correctly, and uses the appropriate form of "to, two, and too" for his statments. Can it be that much to ask? Must I have a crush on my young, married professor, just because he's the only attractive man I've ever met who is also smart and actually cares about something real?
Coveteous is the wrong word. It implies intent to take. I meant to call it envy. Wanting something that isn't yours, but not planning to do anything about it.
I don't have to have that specific person. Obviously, I'm not going to become a homewrecker so I can date my college professor. I'm going to break up with Dodo who doesn't like me for who I really am, and wait for someone like my cute professor. But I promise, I won't go after him. I'm not that low.